Mother fucking ipod. I had this whole god damn essay and a half written for this webblog that was deep as shit. Ahhhhhh Jesus this sucks. I'm just sitting here watching Forrest Gump and enjoying time pass me by which is one of the many joys in life. And a very good quote by the Smiths is from the song "Still Ill" it goes "Does the mind rule the body or does the body rule the mind?" I love that because its a great quote and I ponder that a lot. My other point that was in my god damn essay was that I have a wild imagination and I don't know if it keeps me sane or makes me up insane. Like if I'm imagining that I'm happy but I'm really not? I want to know the answer to these questions and find out why I was placed on this earth and what is my sole duty as a person. Also I would like to find a girl that I could talk about anything with, from really deep moral and life shit to goody stuff like our everyday routines that are obscure or weird hah or maybe our OCD tendencies hah I know I got plenty of them.

Well take care err body, I know that's cheessy as fuck, but I'm dead serious ha.

I like this picture, a lot.

I have recently been listening to a lot of Smashing Pumpkins and I have come across my favorite song by them, and possibly one of my favorites in a long time. Its called "Mayonnaise."


" Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will"


Awesome. Well anyways, I recommend you guys check it out or something, yada I mean? Well recently life has taken its toll and started being goofy again and fucking with my emotions and whatnot. I really don't know what I want to do with my life or anything else along those lines of growing up. I don't want to grow up. I have nightmares/intense fear for death, yet I am quite curious. Though I hate the concept of not knowing what happens when you die, it interests me a lot.


Which sort of brings me to my next topic of discussion, I really do not know what the meaning of life is. I want to find a real purpose on this earth and want to be able to really want to live for once. I have thought a lot about it in my solum loneliness, which is how i spend most of my time these days.


This is a relatively short entry but i thought i would give you guys a quick update and not too make you think I died or something with that last entry, I was just feeling abnormally melancholy.


I still want to find the American Dream or where the real wind blows. Maybe one of these days I'll find the perfect person for me that will gravitate my feelings about life. Its a definite possibility.


Take Care everyone and make Good Decisions, peace out.

Reality is killer man.

I recently have watched some really good movies, and are some of my favorite, no doubt. The first one is Lost In Translation, I absolutely loved it. It really shows that you can't give up on life when you reach a stand-still or dead end. Its about these two people Bill Murray and Scarlett Johanson. They both don't enjoy their life and are far away from the spouses literally and mentally. Then they meet each other and it really sheds light on their lives and gives their lives some meaning. I don't want to say my interpretation of the movie title, it may spoil it, but feel free to reply with your own interpretation. But honestly, I am growing weary of accepting reality, I just want to stay indoors and not be exposed to it. I would like to go out and meet people but this world is not ready for me, I think.

So now I will post some of my favorite albums, and songs from those albums, to help those of you accept fate or just pass the time away, letting the good times roll.

1. Mogwai- Come On Die Young.



Possibly the most meaningful song to me and one of my favorite, I think I listen to it everyday:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=R5YLkiqseSI (copy and paste that into your address bar)

2. Mogwai- Young Team



The track Tracy is the highlight of this fabulous album. For Sure:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Opn8riUNygM&feature=related

The Remix of it, which is pretty good- http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZJSN5V72w7s&feature=related

3. Godspeed You! Black Emperor. Possibly the most amazing thing to be in my life right now. They are geniuses.
The album is "Slow Riot For New Zero Kanada" It is amazing.




It only has 2 tracks, Moya and Blaise Bailey Finnegan III(Yes, my facebook name). Both tracks are amazing and the CD only needs that many to be great.

BBF3: http://youtube.com/watch?v=X35dRb4UVHQ (Its the last couple of minutes, please watch it.)

Contact me if you want more, I'm feeling sort of lazy today.

Like I always leave as a side note, take care everyone and make good decisions. You're all somebody.

I suggest You all Life Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven.

There are so many kids in this place I live that are so stupid. And deserve a royal shlumping from the Prime Minister himself of fucking Nova Scotia. So theres this kid, Derek Emlet...He is the epitome of ignorant. God he is such a little shit.

He is just an asshole, I don't want to make this a blog for venting, but this kid is killing me.

I officially have come to the conclusion that Mr. Tambourine Man is one of the greatest songs of our time, and it should be considered holy. It has so many good lines/verses it is killing me, its like a song for the lonely people In my opinion. I don't know. That is barely making any sense, I'm just blabbering which is something I often do, like just randomly need to because so many random thoughts are going through my head, its like a race-car track, well at least as fast as the cars. but I need to get out of my house more, I just sit around and "veg" out listening to music and shit like that.

It may seem easy, but it really isn't. I'm way too afraid of what the rest of life has in store for me, so I just sit in my house. Its so annoying, I want to experience what destiny/life has in store for me, But i can't get over the fact that people are way to judgmental about each other, but there are some really great people that know whats up and are the coolest people I know and are seriously just great people. There are only like 2 in my grade, the rest are Older or younger. Which is also another weird thing. I rarely get along with people that are in my grade level, if I do they are the people I find most interesting/normal and the most purest example of a good person. I wish more people's genes were modeled after those in One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest. Not necessarily mentally challenged or autistic, but more so just great people under the skin and know how to spot a real leader when they see one, and change their entire perspective on life by the power of one mans natural personality when exposed to it. Some people have said that about me, I have a great personality and am a one of a kind, but I don't want to sound like I'm praising myself, when I know there is somethings wrong with me. Very wrong.

Goodnight everyone, well actually just you Kara, since you are the only subscriber and people looking at this, haha. Take Care.

P.S. You are one of the people in my grade that I feel are great people and have a clear perspective on what is yet to come in the future.
 
P.S.S. The picture is an album cover for the band Godspeed You! Black Emperor. It is one of the most influential albums I have heard, just greatness wrapped up into a paper CD holder with wrapping on it. Absolutely Marvelous.

Yes, I really am the mogwai. Fear me for I am ahead of my time, and I feel life is no better then crackers.